Alone in the Universe

Sorry its been so long but life has been pretty crazy lately. This passed weekend I had auditions Friday through Sunday. It was nuts!!!

Friday and Sunday auditions were for a show called Seussical the Musical. If you have never heard of it, go look it up its an amazing show.

ANYWAY.....

I wanted the role of Miss Gertrude Mcfuzz. She is a bird with one feather for a tail. She is very awkward like me. I have been working on my audition for weeks I wanted it so bad! Then I found out that my crush, we will call him Horton(hehe see what i did there), wanted to play Horton! Horton and Gertrude are the two star crossed lovers of the show. He told me that he wanted to be Horton and Gertrude together!!

I almost died!!! Now me and Horton have a passed. I met him in 7th grade when I played his wife in Beauty and the Beast. We had a "thing" but nothing happened. Ever since then I have always wanted him to be my first kiss. It could still be him btw.

We worked on our auditions going back and forth waiting for callbacks and what not. Then we BOTH got callbacks. I was soo excited i got to see him, for the first time in weeks. We got to callbacks and when I saw him I knew I had fallen for him again. My nerves went away when we talked and I was happy as a clam. Then they split the girl and the guys up. The nerves came back and I felt like no one else wanted me there but him. He got sent home after about forty-five minutes and was keeping me posted on how they were running things.

In the mean time they had handed all the girl Mazie's song to learn. Now I am NO Mazie. I'm not skinny nor pretty. I'm not the perfect dancer. I couldn't sing Mazie's song. I was one of the few girl who had to sing that song and it sucked. I was so mad at myself. Then they called a few girls to sing for Gertrude.... I was not one of them...

I was crushed. Right then I knew i was not going to even get to sing for Gertrude. I didn't have the chance to prove to them that i would be perfect. But no they had me sing for a bird girl. In the end they offered me a bird girl but i turned it down. I knew i would not be able to have fun knowing that i failed at even getting to show them my version of Gertrude.

Now Horton on the other hand... got Horton the elephant!!! I am soo happy for him!! He will be amazing! I knew he would get it!

But we were suppose to be Horton and Gertrude TOGETHER...

He knows how devastated i am. He wants me to take call the theatre and ask for my role back just so i can be in the show with him... HE wanted me too...

And this makes me wonder, had i accepted it and done the show, would something happen between me and him? Does he still feel the same way he did three years ago? So many things are running through my head. And just to make everything better. Its valentine's day week. The worst week ever. But if i had accepted the role, would i have a valentine this year?


These are my thoughts. I will either blog later or tomorrow. There is so much on my mind right now. But TTFN

Alice

P.S. Notice me Horton.....