Inception

Is it possible for someone to plant an idea in your head and it grows?

For example: My friend Victoria over the summer told me that my friend Jake and I would make a cute couple.

I pondered on this idea for a little bit and thought it would be funny because it would be the Finn and Rachel relationship. Jake and I are both in theatre but he also plays football.
I laughed at the idea and said he would never go for a girl like me. Well summer passed and it was around Christmas time. We were at rehearsal for our Arts department Christmas Show called Holiday Spectacular. Now Jake can be a very immature guy, when he is around his friend but what guy isn't, and I know this about him. But I started to notice that he would change every time he was around me. Even if his friends were around. He would become this charming gentlemen. He would be so down to earth and personal with me but not the friend zone kind of thing. I just went with the flow and didn't much of it till recently at children's show rehearsal.

My friend Phoebe and I are playing twins in the children's show and Jake is playing our father. I was talking to my friend Phoebe about what Victoria had said and she joked with me about it. Yesterday at rehearsal I looked at Jake in a different way. I felt something different. But again I just brushed it off and kept rehearsing.

Tonight at rehearsal I was doing Jake's hair and he was freaking out because my friend Catey was trying to straighten his hair. When she was done he was so embarrassed and I could tell he was uncomfortable so I was trying to make him laugh. He started telling me how he was scared that his team mates would see him and that they would make fun of him. I said to him, "I understand. I have been uncomfortable about costumes and hair and makeup too. This one time I stopped eating because I was so uncomfortable about a costume." And he said,"Last year for football, I had to drop 20 pounds just so I could play." I replied,"I dropped 30 pounds in one week because I had stopped eating and worked out so hard, and with stress all because I was uncomfortable with a costume and the costumer wouldn't listen to me." He looked at me for a second with a very sad and shocked look on his face and just gave me a big hug.

And thats when I realized it... I think I like Jake. Not just as a friend. I got butterflies in my stomach when I hugged him.

Could what Victoria said over the summer been part of the influence to make me feel this way? I'm not even positive I do like him or if it is just because of what Victoria said.

I will continue the story later and will tell my next boy drama story later. TTFN
Alice

P.S. I finally figured it out. I don't like him. Or if I did, it passed by quick!!! My real crush is my next blog.