Home sick and scared

Well it's only day two and I'm having a bit of a rough time. No one here knows about my brother so when I have a panic attack, like I did earlier, I have no one to talk to. There is a chance he could e coming home while I'm gone and I found out today that missing class in less for extreme medical reasons is unacceptable  and during finals, completely unacceptable, so I panicked.

Yes my aunt is right around the corner but at 12:00 at night, that won't help much:( 

I was outside my room crying while on the phone with my mom when one of the RAs came out and saw me. The first time she passed she mouthed," are you ok?" And I nodded. She came back twenty minutes later and I was still on the phone so she just quietly sat down next to me and waited till I got off the phone. So I quickly ended the phone call to talk to her. She again asked if I was ok and I said, " yes it's just extremely overwhelming and scary." And she comforted me about being away from home. She's from Scotland so she told me what it was like coming for we first semester. We talked for about twenty minutes and I immediately felt much better. 

My roommate was telling me how during acting class we have to get very personal and emotional and everyone was crying and I'm scared about it. I have that class tomorrow song have no idea what will happen. 

But if I freak during class I will come home an most likely tell my RA what is going on. 

Well it's bed time! More tomorrow!! 

TTFN